50:17 You know, you could be a closeted German. Yes, exactly. Where with me, like I said back in... Well, you could be a closeted German easily. I mean, no one would know. So this is where we get to with the guilt, the shame, and it's like, prove you're not a racist. Adam, prove that you're not a racist. Like, if that's the conversation... Yeah, proving a negative is impossible. Okay, now I want to tell this story. 1969, I'm five years old. We're living in Kensington, Maryland. And this morning your phone call actually triggered this. And also I'm writing my book and so things are coming into my mind that I haven't thought about. So I'm five and you don't really remember much when you're five. But I remember very distinctly a feeling I had
51:09 My parents were both government employees and I think it was a Saturday, no I'm sure it was a Saturday, they said hey we're having some colleagues come over from work and they'll be here. I don't know if they said they were black but it was a family of four, mom, dad, son, daughter and they were colleagues so they also state government employees and I remember they were so dressed up, like Sunday... and we went to church on Sundays back in Unitarian Church. Okay, we went to church and I remembered them all dressed up, you know, like Sunday best and like, why? Thank you for ringing that bell. And that moment, and I'm trying to bring it up now, I felt
52:02 I felt very emotional about it. I don't know if it was, wow, you know, and they weren't really talkative, you know, they were like, yes, and a lot of yes, yes, yes, sir, no ma'am, all the bit like really being on their Sunday best. And my sister, well, my sister was very young, but I was like, I just want to hang out and play. And I remember feeling Not guilt, to be honest with you Mo, I think I felt sorry and I didn't know anything about the civil rights movement. I'm five, you know, I'm five and I don't think I'd really interacted with black kids, certainly not in Kensington, Maryland at the time. I'm sure that's changed now. And that's what I felt and it was very odd to me, but it was not just color, but it was the whole thing, you know, the being extra dressed up and extra and like, it didn't make sense to me. I hope that it's coming out if you understand what I'm saying here. The reason why I rang my bell, I'm going to be on the opposite side of that conversation.
53:04 This is a phenomenon that I grew up under when we went somewhere you looked your best It wasn't the fact that all you want to impress white people It's the fact that we're not gonna feed into the stereotypes We're gonna defeat the stereotypes so You had to be ironed every day. But that's really weird because all I wanted was for another kid to show up with a Schwinn bike, you know? It's like, hey man, let's go run around the neighborhood. So it had an adverse effect on me at the time. Well, this is the conversation. Don't ask for anything. Don't embarrass us. That you get in the car.
53:47 And I was telling my wife, I was like, you know, the weird thing now is, and like I said, when I do generalities, it's just for this, to highlight a point. For sake of conversation, of course. You know who does that now? The newly immigrated. When we go to school functions, all the kids, you know, they kind of got like, I mean, say if it calls for like a chorus recital. They have a white shirt, black pants, black shoes. The girls wear dresses. The newly immigrated, you can identify them because the way they dress.
54:31 It's so neat, it's so clean, you know, well kept. And then you look at the American quote-unquote, American kids, it's like, eh. Well, you know, and subsequently, just to tack on to that when it comes to clothing, of course, every black guy I've known is much better at doing clothes than I am. And when I went to college and my roommate is black, I learned how to wash and dry and fold. And you know, so that's just, it's a purely cultural difference, but man, I'm happy for it. Yeah, my grandma showed me how to iron it like 10, nine, 10 years old. I mean, because it's the way you carry yourself. And that, and that comes from, like I said, that generational thing, mostly your grandparents and parents, like, you know, we're new, black people were newly integrated at this period. I mean, if you really want to, I mean, it's a,
55:24 Oh yeah, I mean, this is 1969, Mo. This is, you know, this is right after it all went down, you know? Right, I mean, I know from people, oh what do you mean by immigrant? Because we were on the fringe of society and now we were allowed in, so it's like we had the same mentality as newly immigrated people now that I observed. Well, what you just said hit home for me. You said, you're in the car. Don't ask questions. Don't embarrass us. That if that'll be by the way, that'll fuck you up as a kid. Well, you got to understand what's riding on that. Oh, it will. It will. Yeah, it will. I'm not saying it won't, but it's like, hey, the whole race is riding on your shoulders. Yeah. When you go into environments and you know what? To be honest with you doing this podcast, I feel that